Got my annual notice that my health insurance premiums are increasing by 21% and my coverage is decreasing by 30%. I dare you to try to defend the Affordable Care Act to me. I dare it, but I don’t recommend it.
That letter arrived at a time that I was already thinking about stopping using the medication I’m on, not just for cost reasons, although that was a small part of it, but because my body has been telling me that these things are no longer good for me. My anxiety patterns, my occasional and otherwise inexplicable feeling like I’ve been hit by a truck, and a few other things have all made me begin to think that maybe the meds are no longer serving their purpose.
My therapist agreed.
I was really surprised to have her full support for that decision. She think that I might see significant improvement in my mental health, and cautioned that I will need to wean off of them slowly and one at a time rather than just stopping, so I now have a scheduled plan that starts Monday.
To be transparent about this, I have been on birth control pills for over a decade because when I was younger my periods were extremely heavy (enough to cause anemia) and one day I bled so much at work I had to leave, and a very kind coworker helped me get out without leaving an embarrassing trail. For me, that was it. I’m also on a low dose of Lexapro, been on 10 mg for two years now, and at this point since I haven’t increased the dose, it’s time to get off.
The Xanax stays. I had a massive anxiety episode when I got back from a conference last night and it was the chemical kind. I also don’t take it every day or even every week.
So this will be great or I’ll be back on them in two months, time to find out!