100 Days of Healing – Day 85

I caught myself casually ignoring calories last night. I had severe anxiety and just leaving my room was hard. I went from high to severe while I made dinner and felt myself tipping over the edge to xanax level.

That weight loss trigger? Haha, yeah. So I was unconsciously disregarding that I was coping by packing on the calories.

But I noticed.

It’s so hard to reprogram triggers in the middle of severe anxiety. It’s so hard to do anything other than what reads as necessary to survival. I can work. I can feed myself. I can usually shower and brush my teeth. That’s about it.

Which is highlighting an urgent need to pause and make space to dig into this and face it.

After I go get my hair cut.

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