No one said how bad it would hurt when I stopped numbing…
But it does, and there’s lots of noise and doubt in my head, and a low tolerance for chaos, and I’m struggling to get through work every day and to sleep every night.
This doesn’t feel better.
And still no one is stepping up to do this with me. They throw up their hands and don’t understand and leave me alone. Which is the worst. And why I stayed numb for so long.