100 Days of Healing – Day 57

I lost 5.4 lbs on my juice cleanse last week. No surprise there. I gained a little more than half of it back the next day after a bean and cheese burrito, a handful of chips with salsa and a small piece of cake. Figures.

I immediately started thinking up my next crash diet. Keto! I’ll do keto for a month and get my weight down. And not because I really believe in fad diets or think this is a sustainable lifestyle, but because it’s important for me to see right now that I can. Did the weight come back immediately? Yes. But more to the point, I did it. And I can keep doing it. I am starting to believe I can make the changes I need to long term for a healthier lifestyle.

I’ve been walking this week and tracking my calories, or at least close enough to it. And I’ve lost nearly 2 lbs since the post-juice weight jump. I’m 3 lbs down total, and I’m pretty pleased with that, because that wasn’t crash diet, that’s real, and the juice was the kickstart I was hoping it would be. I needed to see that I could do it so that I could have the confidence to continue through what will be a longer and greater challenge.

100 Days of Healing – Day 47

I’m on a juice, green tea and cashew milk diet this week. I’m not big into cleanses and crash diets, but I have it in my head that this will be good for a reset. And after last week…raw vegan juicing sounds awesome.

I really don’t expect this to be pleasant or enjoyable. I actually expect it to suck. I’m supposed to meet a friend for dinner and drinks this week, and my first thought was that I’ll just veer off the plan for the one meal and it won’t matter.

But that’s how I got here. Veering off when discipline, self-care and boundaries around what I need were tossed aside when it wasn’t “convenient”. I’m not doing this to punish myself, I’m doing it because I’m finally starting to love myself! So I’ll drink juice for dinner there and we’ll have a lovely time and I will stick to what I know is beneficial for me, regardless of what anyone else thinks about it.