HRV Tracking

The new wearable tech is here, and I’ve been checking my HRV a few times a day. The app I’m using is geared toward athletes, but for my application (managing PTSD symptoms) it’s working well, I think. I’m not changing behavior this week, I’m seeing what it does and how, how my number fluctuates throughout the day and how I’m feeling compared to my number. If HRV is new for you, check out my post about why I’m doing this! 

I was at 55 when I woke up yesterday morning, which is pretty good. I was at 44 this morning, and I had a bad night and ended up going back to sleep after I woke up. Data doesn’t resolve anything for me, but can inform how I understand and respond to my own needs, which is something that has been a challenge for me.

I’m pushing through work this week to get prepped for next week when I’ll be traveling and speaking a lot. I also have to submit a project for a client, and that has to be ready to go before I hit the road because I won’t have time to do it later. Despite the sometimes dizzying anxiety I’m experiencing this week, I keep pushing ahead as I’m able. Once I get past next week my deadlines and public appearances should be done for the year, and I can go back to working in quiet on my own time – which means I will need to use that time to really dig into managing PTSD instead of letting it manage me.

100 Days of Healing – Day 79

I’ve had a bit of a PTSD relapse this week. If I’m not working I’m in bed, and I’m certainly not bouncing out of bed in the morning.

I what and why, I know my current limitations and how to manage it, I just don’t know yet how to get out of it. Looks like some damage goes deep, and I still have work to do on this trauma.

Good thing I see a therapist! But I’m working out of town this weekend so that’s gonna be a challenge…

100 Days of Healing – Day 67

Two-thirds of the way through a focused effort to heal a lot of the damage wrought on me by PTSD, I’m astounded by how far I’ve progressed in two months. My sleeping and eating habits have improved, my relationships have improved or been released, I’m spending less time trying to control what I can’t, I’m much more aware of when I need to pause and get to a place of calm, I’m more focused, I’m much better at managing triggers and I am getting to the root of a problem more quickly and with less time spinning in anxiety. I have more creativity, more critical thinking, more problem-solving and more willingness to try new things.