Awesome Blogger Award – Thanks!

Hunida was so kind to tag me for the Awesome Blogger Award! Blogging has been the best gift I have given myself in a long time, and bloggers like Hunida expand my view of the world in ways I deeply appreciate. She also posts some really yummy recipes with reviews, so if you’re looking for new, healthy cooking ideas in 2018, check her out!

Awesome Blogger Award Is:

“This is an award for the absolutely wonderful writers all across the blogging world. They have beautiful blogs, are kind and lovely, and always find a way to add happiness and laughter to the lives of their readers. That is what truly defines an awesome blogger.”

Created by Miss Maggie @ Dreaming of Guatemala

The Rules Are:

  • Thank the person who nominated you
  • Tag it under #awesomebloggeraward in the Reader
  • Answer the questions your nominator gave you
  • Nominate at least 5 awesome bloggers
  • Give your nominees 10 new questions to answer
  • Let your nominees know that they’ve been nominated

Hunida’s Questions:

  1. At what percentage is it time to charge your phone? I start thinking about it at 7%, I’ll get up and plug it in at 3%.
  2. If you could travel anywhere but, it has to be outside of the USA, where would you choose to go? Back to New Zealand! I didn’t see enough of it the first time.
  3. What animal would you choose to keep as a pet? (It would love you and be house-trained.) A sloth…I could probably use more chill in my life.
  4. If you were on death row, what would your last meal be? (They let you choose whatever you want.) Cheese enchiladas with guacamole.
  5. What would your dream kitchen look like? It would be full of friends and food!
  6. What was your favorite meal as a child? Has it changed now that you’re an adult? My grandma let me help make biscuits for breakfast in the morning when we visited her, and I loved it. I still love biscuits, actually…you can do so much with them.
  7. What is your favorite/most used phone app? I almost hate to say this, but Fitbit. I helps me keep track of my water intake, anxiety and how much I’m taking care of myself physically. I like data, and that is me-data.
  8. Are you a multi-tasker? Yes, but I’m not as good at it as I used to be so I’m trying to transition to focusing on one thing at a time.
  9. Do you need noise to fall asleep to or complete silence? If you need noise, what kind? Ceiling fan or it’s a long night for me!
  10. If you could choose; how would you choose to die? Any way I don’t see it coming. I stared death in the face once, and I don’t want to do it again.

My Nominees:

 

I really enjoy y’all’s blogs! Some bloggers do their own thing and I respect that, but if you want to answer some questions, here’s what I’d like to know:

My Questions:

  1. What color eye shadow?
  2. Do you like sandwiches? (If yes, please describe favorite!)
  3. Flats or heels?
  4. How much water do you drink every day, on average?
  5. What is the best coffee you’ve ever had?
  6. How do you feel about the smell of rain?
  7. If there is one blog you think I must follow, which is it?
  8. Corn chips or potato chips?
  9. Number one thing you want to do before summer 2018.
  10. How long have you been blogging?

 

Thanks for being you, keep at it, I appreciate the inspiration, insight and human connection!

Done for the Year

My emotions need a break, and I want to do things that are comforting and not the least bit stressful.

I mentioned in therapy yesterday that I am done with 2017. I’m done with work, done with social engagements and all I want to do is sleep in comfy pajamas and bake in between reading books and sipping tea. Really, in two more weeks I can do that, but I don’t want to wait two more weeks. Even a week and a half.

I think a lot of other people are feeling this. We’re done. This year was rough, there has been a LOT of trauma and anxiety and negative energy, and I want to just bubble up and pretend it doesn’t exist for a bit. My emotions need a break, and I want to do things that are comforting and not the least bit stressful. I want to do things that bring me joy and that are gratifying to others. I’ve spent so much energy trying to hold it together this year that I am depleted and in need of rest, rest I haven’t taken the time for because…reasons.

Maybe a re-frame is better. Maybe I’m not done for the year, maybe I’m done expending energy on anxiety for the year. Maybe I’m done expending energy on externalities for the year. Maybe for the rest of the year my energy will go toward positive things that bring me joy rather than black holes of negativity. I think I’ll be in a much better position to give in the new year.

Late Nights & Lots of Crafts

I’m in my natural state – overextended.

I stay in a constant state of overcommitment. I still haven’t learned that I can’t do as much most days, so I do what I want to do, rather than what would be a better balance. I really love to give my time away. ALL OF IT.

I have zero space for dating, because I hadn’t planned on it. Now I’m dating, and it’s making for some late nights on the phone because that’s when we can catch up and focus on each other.

I am working with my lovely if occasionally annoying group of kids to make crafts to sell at my city’s massive Christmas Stroll this coming weekend in support of an orphanage near Monterrey, Mexico. It’s beyond giving to the less fortunate, it’s about providing for the most vulnerable people – impoverished and abused children. We heard about the booth and promptly offered up all of our creativity and spare nights, and we have been busy. It’s a great bonding time, but sitting on a tile floor painting for 3 hours last night is not without its consequences for me this morning as I creak around. My grouchy old bones are not as willing of participants.

This is on top of work, caring for my grandma, running the house, my brother starting to open up to me, various other holiday commitments for care packages and gatherings, my pro bono work, my volunteer work, and at some point starting to make Christmas happen.

Can I not adult today?

But it’s so worth it. Sacrificial giving is such a fulfilling thing. Not the giving from excess, but giving from having little. It’s part of my practice of gratitude, and I have rest planned as soon as I finish my whirlwind of commitments. I will be grateful for that too!